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had my class presentation last week & just got the grade back, 95! Some comments about how I talked fast (which i knew) but man whatever an A is an A I don't care.

So today was my second pressing concern, the gyno appt and my first pap test. I should have gone before now but I spent my 20s neglecting my health checkups lmao so I'm catching up in my 30s. Next stop dentist I guess.

It was... ok. Like it wasn't the worst experience of my life and my dr was nice. She at least listened and had concerns about my issues with bleeding outside of my period. We chatted about how if my results all come back normal we'll meet again and talk more about it and see what next steps are. Hopefully it's just all down to stress and hormones and maybe it'll be an easy fix. She didn't seem extremely concerned which is good, because non-hpv cervical cancer is an extremely small chance which I didn't know!

So, whatever. Ultimately I'm glad I sucked it up and went and am taking care of myself how I should be doing just to be on the safe side. What I'm extremely glad about is they no longer suggest getting the test yearly lol they suggest 3-5 years these days, whew!

Anyway bleeding again after the stupid scraping test which she warned me about but is annoying!!!!!

whatev whatev my project is due Tuesday so I have to work on that, I should see my results in the next couple days and know what I'm doing next soon. fingers crossed i am NOT dying after all

Can't believe I haven't posted in so long, but at the same time I think it tracks. I've been busy in general and haven't had the mental energy to spare for journaling.

Next week i have my final project presentation for my class (a dnd linguistic analysis project) and then ~2 weeks after that is the final due date. Today I registered for my final class of grad school!!!!! Mostly I am just SO ready to be done even if I have 0 plans for after

Anyway the past few months I've been having weird pre-period spotting like consistently 10 days before my period and intermittently up to my period starting. It happened in like May and I saw my gp about it who said it happens and don't worry about it. But it happened again now in Feb and now in April like consistently and more bleeding and for way too long.

I made the appointment today to see a gyno for a smear and a checkup bc I've been very bad and actually have never gone before... ever. It's not wise but I have no concerning family history and I'm ace so it's not like I've been worried about a lot of the sexual concerns obv. But still I should have been going. I'm only finally taking medical responsibility for myself after neglecting to for....... my entire 20s.

Anyway I have to get it out because I have to be able to focus on other things until my appointment.

I did some googling (bad!) and I'm trying very hard to not spend the weeks leading up to my appointment convincing myself it's cervical cancer but I mean it's a very real possibility. I know it's much much much more likely just like, hormonal changes of hitting mid 30s, perimenopause?????, maybe polyps? endometriosis? stress even?

idk it's highly unlikely it's cervical cancer and I just have to keep reminding myself of that. Or if it is, hopefully it's early. hopefully they can just take out the whole ute and leave it at that, i aint using it. she's brought me nothing but unpleasantness anyway.

appointment on the 22nd, results hopefully soon after that. I'll drop by with how that all goes, I guess!

oh YEAH ALSO im pretty sure i can feel my mouth trying to produce another salivary gland stone which is painful and unfun and wack so im very much looking forward to that finally happening